Friday, March 29, 2013

The Post With No Name

I have been thinking about this post for a while, not being sure what I was going to write. I think it has something to do with ttwd not being what I think it should be right now. There is no "back in the saddle", at least not for Hubby. While he is still HoH, he is extremely gentle and I am definitely not TiH. All our spanking has been for fun and games. He likes the wiggle my butt gets going after being paddled intensely. But it's not for discipline. And I'm sort of okay with that.

When I "came back" to my old self, I immediately started reading up on everything I missed in DDland. I saw that there was a new DD contract and I was rearin' to go. When Hubby asked what I was looking at, I told him and he shook his head. He said that he doesn't want to go back to being strict. Sigh...


So where do I go from here? I guess I don't. I'll keep doing what we are doing, wishing we were doing what y'all are doing. I'll keep reading and learning and listening and sharing. My posts will probably be pretty boring and vanilla, but it's what I've got and I'm not going anywhere. I love you all. And even if I can't have what you have, I am not willing to move on. I like you all too much.

So with all that said, I guess I'm left with this; whatever happens happens. No stress. No sweat. C'est la vie.

On the not so sad front, my kids are doing well. We are all healthy. Hubby's business is signing some big contracts which means no more stressing over money for a while. My business is going okay, but sales are really slow and we had to lay off a few people. I am working on key accounts to try to bring us to the next level.

After Easter I plan to go back on my diet and exercise. Hubby wants to join tae kwon-do and asked if I wanted to as well. I'm not so sure about that, but maybe. The kids have been doing martial arts after school, both Judo and Tae Kwon-do. He thinks it would be great to spar with the kiddos. I'm a lover not a fighter. ;)

I will have my nail license soon. Everyone who sees my nails wants me to do theirs. I will have a pretty lucrative, albeit very part-time, career. I want to make a name for myself as the lady who does the amazing nails in our area. I'm also looking forward to a day each week with the old ladies. I plan to volunteer 1 day a week at a local assisted care facility.

Other than all that, there is not much going on that you don't already do yourselves; taking care of kids, running them around, meals, tv, guests, holidays, spring break camp, work, sleep...Just no D in my DD.

Maybe we'll circle round. Maybe we won't. I'm not upset, frustrated, or depressed. I'm not angry. I'm at peace with it for now.

Have a wonderful Easter!

(((hugs)))

12 comments:

  1. I think the key thing in this post is your positive attitude. Good on you. Be cautiously optimistic. You are right who knows what the future will bring?

    Sounds like you are focusing on what you can control, and that is fantastic!! Good luck achieving your goals, and finding ways to strengthening your relationship in a way that works for both of you!

    love willie

    P.S. as for vanilla posts? Who cares? I read to read about *you* not if you are getting spanked or not!!!

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  2. Write what you think or what you feel, or what makes you made, or what touches you. That's mostly what we do. Just a little note that I have missed you and your kindness and thoughtful comments.

    (((hugs)))

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    1. (((hugs))) June. I will make sure to make it over to you.

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  3. Hi LM, I'm glad it sounds as though things in your vanilla world are going well. It's great to hear your hubby's business is doing so well.

    I am certainly glad you aren't going anywhere. I enjoy all of your posts and learning a little more about you. Vanilla or not.

    Happy to hear you are at peace with your dynamic and as you said, who knows what the future may have in store.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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  4. Hi LM,

    Nice to meet you! I'm sure that you are disappointed, but good for you for carrying on with a wait and see attitude. We never know what our HoH's will do in the future. We are pretty new at this and I just take it one day at a time with few expectations. My husband is also very very gentle and being strict has been a big change for him. I try to remember that spanking is a tool, and that the real thing is about taking this relationship to a higher level of closeness, love, trust and understanding.

    I too would love to read your blog- vanilla or not! I think that your nail idea is a wonderful one! What a fun and interesting thing to do to make a difference! You will bring great joy to the elderly women that you visit! Hugs!

    <3 Katie

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    1. Thank you Katie! And nice to meet you too! I'm going to wait it out and see where we go. ((hugs))

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  5. Hi LM,
    I just found you via Lucy's blog.

    My husband and I seem to practice ttwd the way that you two do. I find that it's still a very interesting ride with regard to respect, listening, attentiveness, going the extra mile for one another and communication.

    Have you experienced these things as well? I'm curious, because like you, we don't practice this lifestyle like most. We're what I like to refer to as "ttwd-lite." :)

    Nice to 'meet' you!

    Elisa

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    1. Hi Elisa! Nice to meet you! We had a DD ttwd, but then my hormones took a wild swing to the left for several months. Now that I'm back on track, we aren't doing anything. At. ALL. What I want/need will have to stay on the back burner until Hubby is ready. For now, I am trying to be patient. :)
      ((hugs))

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  6. I'm glad that you are at peace about it because he is still the leader. It is up to him to decide how to love you best right now. Trust him Lilmisses...he has your best interest at heart.

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    1. Absolutely Susie. Patience isn't my thang, but I will wait on him.

      ((hugs))

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